>> PREVIOUSLY ON NIP/TUCK...
>> YOU REALLY SHOULD LOCK UP
YOUR FIREARMS AND NOT LEAVE THEM
IN A BEDSIDE TABLE DRAWER, YOU
STUPID BITCH.
>> AAH!
[GUNSHOT]
>> WE´RE STILL MARRIED?
>> WE´RE STILL MARRIED. AND WE
HAVE 3 BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN.
EVERYTHING IS JUST...
PERFECT.
I CAN´T WALK. IT´S HARD.
>> SO IS STAGE 2 BREAST CANCER.
>> WHAT DOES BREAST CANCER HAVE
TO DO WITH ANYTHING?
>> I HAVE IT.
[VOMITS]
>> DON´T FIGHT IT.
IT´S LESS PAINFUL THAT WAY.
>> LIZ?
>> YEAH?
>> CAN YOU STAY A WHILE?
JUST UNTIL I FALL ASLEEP.
[GRUNTS]
>> [MOANS]
>> YOU AND DR. CHRISTIAN TROY
HAD SEXUAL INTERCOURSE.
>> YOU AND LIZ HAD SEX?
>> YEAH, SO? LIZZIE WAS THERE
FOR ME. SHE SPREAD HER LEGS AND
MADE ME FEEL GOOD.
>> YOU WERE AWAKE?
>> GOT MY MOJO BACK.
>> I KNEW THAT YOU WEREN´T
SLEEPING, AND I FAKED MY ORGASM,
AND YOU ARE A LOUSY LAY!
>> OH, COME ON, I HAVE AN IMAGE
TO PROTECT.
>> I´M SORRY, I HAVE NO IDEA WHO
YOU ARE.
>> I´M A GODDAMN ICON. TELL HIM
WHO I AM.
>> CANDY RICHARDS?
>> DAMN STRAIGHT.
>> TELL US WHAT YOU DON´T LIKE
ABOUT YOURSELF NOW,
MS. RICHARDS.
>> OH, I DON´T GO BY CANDY
RICHARDS NO MORE. THAT NAME WAS
GIVEN TO ME BY A WHITE MAN. MY
NAME IS COCO. I´M AN AFRICAN
AMERICAN, AND I´VE BEEN PASSING
AS A HONKY WHITE CRACKER FOR MY
ENTIRE LIFE.
>> WHAT?
>> YEAH, MY AGENT MAURY GAVE ME
THIS THING FOR CHRISTMAS.
IT WAS LIKE A GENETICS D.N.A.
GIFT SET. I FOUND OUT THAT I´M
AFRICAN IN NATURE. ALL MY LIFE
I´VE WONDERED WHY MY CAREER
ISN´T BIGGER. IS IT BECAUSE I´M
TOO BEAUTIFUL? OR IS IT BECAUSE
I´M TOO SMART?
>> NOT TALENTED?
>> I THOUGHT THAT, TOO, BUT NOW
IT ALL MAKES SENSE. I LOVE BILLY
OCEAN, I LOVE CHICKEN AND
WAFFLES, AND ALWAYS I´VE BEEN
ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT I
ALWAYS KNOW DEEP IN MY HEART
THAT O.J. WAS INNOCENT. I´M
A BLACK DAUGHTER OF SLAVERY
WITH--WITH BLOOD FROM THE ZULU
NATION.
>> WELL, YOU STILL HAVEN´T TOLD
US WHY YOU´RE HERE.
>> I WANT SOME AFRICAN AMERICAN
FEATURES. I HAVE THE CHEST, YOU
KNOW, WHICH IS, PROOF OF MY
HERITAGE. WHAT I WANT IS A BIG,
FAT, ROUND BEYONCE ASS. AND I
NEED IT FAST BECAUSE MY HIP-HOP
ALBUM´S GONNA DROP SOON, AND I
NEED TO GET SOME MORE JUNK IN
THE TRUNK BEFORE I DO MY BIG
VIDEO.
>> MS. RICHARDS--
>> COCO!
>> COCO, THIS IS INSANE. ALL
RIGHT, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH
AFFIRMING YOUR AFRICAN AMERICAN
HERITAGE. YOU´RE DOING IT TO
BECOME A STAR.
>> PITITA POTATO, FRENCH FRY.
>> LOOK, WHAT YOU´RE ASKING FOR
IS ONE STEP AWAY FROM PUTTING
SHOE POLISH ON YOUR FACE AND
SINGING MAMI.
IT´S HIGHLY OFFENSIVE.
>> YOU KNOW, YOU GUYS, YOU DO
ASS IMPLANTS, YOU DO COLLAGEN
INJECTIONS, BUT YET YOU GUYS
WOULD LIKE TO SEND ME TO
THE BACK OF THE BUS WHEN I DON´T
WANT TO HAVE YOUR WHITE VERSION
OF BEAUTY. SHAME ON YOU.
>> [CHUCKLES]
WHAT´S THE HARM, REALLY?
>> OH, I CAN TELL YOU WHAT
THE HARM IS. THE HARM IS ME NOT
ACHIEVING MY DESTINY.
I WANT MY GODDAMN REPARATIONS.
>> UH.
[CLEARS THROAT]
WE HAVE AN OPENING THURSDAY
MORNING.
>> ALL RIGHT. SOLID.
HO HO.
>> ♫ AH,
MAKE ME BEAUTIFUL,
MAKE ME
A PERFECT SOUL,
A PERFECT MIND,
A PERFECT FACE,
A PERFECT
LIFE ♫
>> IT´S A BREAST CANCER SUPPORT
GROUP.
>> "JOIN US AS WE LEARN TO
EMBRACE OUR NEW BODIES, LOVE
THEM AS THEY ARE NOW, NOT AS WE
WISH THEM TO BE."
>> IT´LL BE GOOD FOR YOU TO BE
AROUND PEOPLE WHO ARE GOING
THROUGH WHAT YOU´RE GOING
THROUGH.
>> ONE-TITTED SOCCER MOMS.
THANKS, BUDDY BOY, BUT IT´S NOT
FOR ME.
>> SERIOUSLY, YOU NEED TO DO
SOMETHING TO DEAL WITH YOUR FEAR
ABOUT ALL THIS.
>> I´M NOT SCARED, I´M ANGRY.
>> SAME THING.
>> ALL RIGHT, MAYBE I´LL TAKE
A LOOK AT IT.
>> SEAN.
>> LIZ.
IT´S CHILLY IN HERE.
[CLEAR THROAT]
>> THIS IS WHY I DON´T HAVE SEX
WITH FRIENDS. I´D RATHER BANG
SOMEBODY I DON´T LIKE.
>> I LIED. I CAME.
YOU WERE RIGHT, I HAD AN ORGASM.
I HAD A BIG, FAT, JUICY, BONE
RATTLING ORGASM. HAPPY?
>> YEAH. YOU KNOW, I WASN´T EVEN
TRYING.
>> YOU DON´T GET IT, DO YOU?
WHEN I WAS 21, I DISCOVERED I
WAS A LESBIAN. IT WAS MY
INDEPENDENCE DAY.
I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD WHO I WAS
SUPPOSED TO BE. NOW, YOU DECIDE
TO GET YOUR ROCKS OFF ONE NIGHT
AND I DON´T KNOW UP FROM DOWN.
>> CHRIST. YOU IN LOVE WITH ME?
>> WHAT?! NO. THIS IS LARGER
THAN YOUR EGO, CHRISTIAN. I HAVE
SPENT 20 YEARS DREAMING OF
FINDING THE WOMAN WHO WOULD
SHARE MY LIFE WITH ME.
>> AND NOW?
>> NOW? I DON´T KNOW IF A WOMAN
COULD SATISFY ME. NO ONE EVER
HAS, NOT LIKE THAT.
>> YOU KNOW, YOU´RE OVER
THINKING THIS. MY COCK HAS
MYSTICAL POWERS, THAT´S ALL.
IT´LL PASS.
>> IT´LL PASS? I CAN´T SLEEP.
I´M DISTRACTED. I CAUGHT MYSELF
CHECKING OUT A--A MUSCLE
MAGAZINE AT A NEWSSTAND.
>> YOU KNOW WHAT WE NEED TO DO?
WE NEED TO HAVE SEX AGAIN.
>> OH, I WOULD RATHER DIE.
>> ME, TOO, BUT WE NEED TO KNOW
IF THIS IS A ONE TIME THING.
IF YOU DON´T HAVE A SEISMIC
EVENT AGAIN, THEN YOU´LL KNOW
YOU WERE DESTINED TO CLAP CLAMS
FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.
>> YOU KNOW, MOST PEOPLE WHO
HAVE HAD TRAUMATIC LIFE
EXPERIENCES, THEY GAIN
SENSITIVITY, BUT NO, NOT YOU. I
KNOW YOUR DESTINY, CHRISTIAN.
YOU ARE DESTINED TO DIE ALONE.
>> ANYTHING ELSE?
>> UH, MY EYES. I´VE GOT THESE
AWFUL BAGS NOW.
>> THAT´S BECAUSE YOU HAVEN´T
SLEPT, HONEY. YOU JUST NEED TO
REST.
>> OH, AND MY LIPS. THEY´RE SO
THIN AND PALE.
>> AND THAT´S BECAUSE OF YOUR
DIET, EVEN YOU SAID SO.
>> I LOOK LIKE I´VE AGED
10 YEARS IN THE LAST 6 MONTHS,
AND I KNOW YOU CAN TELL. BETWEEN
TAKING CARE OF YOU AND WATCHING
EDEN MOVE TO EUROPE TO DO THOSE
AWFUL MOVIES, I JUST...DON´T
FEEL LIKE MYSELF ANYMORE. I--I
WANT TO LOOK YOUNGER, MORE
HOPEFUL. LIKE I DID WHEN WE MET.
>> CAN YOU PLEASE TELL HER HOW
RIDICULOUS SHE´S BEING? SHE
DOESN´T NEED ALL THIS WORK DONE.
AND WHAT ABOUT THE RISKS
INVOLVED?
>> AS I RECALL, SHE´S QUITE UP
ON THE ADVERSE EFFECTS OF
WESTERN MEDICINE. SPECIFICALLY
ITS CRUDE APPROACH VS. YOUR
EASTERN TECHNIQUES. WAS THAT
ABOUT WHAT YOU SAID? I´M CURIOUS
TO KNOW WHY YOU´RE SO OPEN TO IT
NOW.
>> WELL, IT SAVED JULIA´S LIFE.
HOW CAN I STILL DENY
THE BENEFITS?
DID WE TALK ABOUT LIPOSUCTION
FOR MY THIGHS?
>> I´LL BE IN THE WAITING ROOM.
[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]
>> YOU TWO SEEM...VERY HAPPY
TOGETHER.
>> [SIGHS] YEAH, IN A WEIRD WAY,
WITH EVERYTHING THAT´S HAPPENED,
IT´S SOMEHOW BROUGHT US CLOSER.
I CAN´T IMAGINE BEING WITHOUT
HER NOW. AND WITH ALL OF THIS
WORK, IT´LL GIVE US A FRESH
START. THAT´S KIND OF WHAT
NEW YORK´S ABOUT, TOO.
>> NEW YORK?
>> I ACCEPTED A POSITION AT
NYU´S TEACHING HOSPITAL.
WE´RE MOVING BACK IN 3 WEEKS.
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
>> WHEN WERE YOU GONNA TELL ME?
NEW YORK? YOU´RE PLANNING TO
LEAVE IN 3 WEEKS AND TAKE CONNOR
AND ANNIE WITH YOU?
>> SHE WASN´T SUPPOSED TO TELL
YOU.
>> HOW LONG WERE YOU GOING TO
HIDE IT FROM ME?
>> [SCOFFS] THIS FROM A MAN WHO
FOOLED EVERYONE INTO THINKING HE
WAS A CRIPPLE? WHY ARE YOU SO
UPSET, SEAN? IT´S NOT LIKE
ANYTHING´S CHANGED BETWEEN US.
>> YEAH. YOU´RE RIGHT.
NOTHING EVER CHANGED FOR ME,
JULIA. I STILL LOVE YOU. I HATE
NOT BEING WITH YOU AND OUR
FAMILY. THAT´S WHY I SAID THOSE
THINGS TO YOU IN THE HOSPITAL.
>> SEAN, STOP IT, PLEASE.
>> NO, I WON´T STOP. NOT TILL
WE´RE TOGETHER AGAIN.
[DOOR CLOSES]
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
>> SEAN, WERE YOU ABLE TO FIT ME
IN?
>> I NEVER THOUGHT I´D BE SCARED
OF A DRESSING ROOM AT
LOEHMANN´S. I JUST FELT EVERYONE
STARING. FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS
ALL IN MY HEAD, BUT THEN I
NOTICED MY PRETEND BREAST HAD
TRAVELED UP TO MY SHOULDER. IT
LOOKED LIKE A CORSAGE. HEH HEH.
I WAS SO HUMILIATED. IT HELPS TO
KNOW THAT I´M NOT ALONE.
>> WE´RE ALL HERE FOR YOU,
LAUREN. ACCEPTANCE IS PART OF
THE GRIEVING PROCESS.
YOU´VE HAD A LOSS.
>> BUT WHAT IF YOU´RE NOT
THE ONE HAVING TROUBLE
ACCEPTING?
I MEAN, I JUST ALWAYS THOUGHT
THAT JACK AND I COULD GET
THROUGH ANYTHING, BUT EVER SINCE
HE´S SEEN MY SCAR, HE WON´T EVEN
TOUCH ME.
>> SON A BITCH.
>> GIVE HIM TIME. I MEAN, MY
HUSBAND FREAKED AT FIRST. AND
NOW HE ACTUALLY FINDS THE SCAR
KIND OF SEXY.
>> [LAUGHS]
>> HE´S LYING.
HE´S PROBABLY GOT SOME HOT
DOUBLE-BREASTED CHICK HE´S
BANGING ON THE SIDE.
>> THAT IS AN AWFUL THING TO
SAY.
>> OH, COME ON, WAKE UP. YOU
THINK ANY GUY WANTS TO RUN HIS
TONGUE ALONG SOME MISSHAPEN GASH
INSTEAD OF SOME HOT PAIR OF
TITTIES.
>> EXCUSE ME, BUT THIS IS
A SUPPORT GROUP, MR.--
>> DR. TROY, PLASTIC SURGEON
AND BREAST CANCER PATIENT.
>> WELL, DOCTOR, THIS IS
OBVIOUSLY THE WRONG PLACE FOR
YOU.
>> WHY´S THAT? I KNOW WHAT IT´S
LIKE TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND
SEE MY MUTILATED BODY. BUT
DAMNED IF I´M GOING TO ACCEPT
IT. YOU NEED TO TAKE CHARGE OF
YOUR DESTINY AND GET SOME
GODDAMN RECONSTRUCTION.
>> WELL, THAT´S A CHOICE.
>> SWEETHEART, I´VE BEEN
STUFFING HEALTHY TITS WITH
IMPLANTS FOR 20 YEARS. ANY WOMAN
WHO CHOOSES DISFIGUREMENT
CHOOSES TO BE A VICTIM.
[LIGHTER FLICKS]
>> THIS IS A CANCER SURVIVOR´S
GROUP, ROXY. IF YOU HAVE TO
SMOKE, DO IT OUTSIDE.
>> OKIE DOKIE.
THERE´S ENOUGH SMOKE BEING BLOWN
IN HERE ANYWAY.
[DOOR CLOSES]
>> [INHALES]
ANY OF YOU LADIES WANT SUPPORT,
JUST, UH, CALL MY OFFICE AND
MAKE AN APPOINTMENT.
>> WANT ONE?
>> I´M NOT ONE FOR MIXING MY
NICOTINE WITH MY TOMOXOPHIN. I
LIKE MY POISONS ONE AT A TIME.
>> SUIT YOURSELF.
ARE YOU CHECKING ME OUT, OR ARE
YOU TRYING TO DECIDE WHICH ONE
IS REAL?
>> THEY´RE BOTH REAL.
>> GOOD EYE.
>> NICE RACK.
SO TELL ME, WHAT´S A GIRL WITH
A COMPLETE SET DOING PLAYING IN
A VICTIMS ANONYMOUS SANDBOX?
>> MY MOTHER AND SISTER BOTH
DIED FROM THE DISEASE. I THOUGHT
THAT BEING AROUND SURVIVORS OR
PEOPLE GOING THROUGH IT
THEMSELVES WOULD BE THERAPEUTIC.
>> AND?
>> NOT SO MUCH, IT TURNS OUT.
WHAT YOU SAID IN THERE ABOUT
TAKING CHARGE OF YOUR OWN
DESTINY, I LIKED IT.
>> YOU LOOK LIKE A WOMAN WHO
LIKES TO TAKE CHARGE.
>> SO WHAT DO YOU THINK IT IS?
YOUR DESTINY, I MEAN.
>> TO BANG AS MANY BEAUTIFUL
WOMEN AS I CAN.
>> SO, DOCTOR...
DO I MAKE THE CUT?
AHH! [MOANING]
>> [GRUNTS]
>> [GROANING]
>> ♫ YOU SAW ME STANDING BY
THE WATER... ♫
[BOTH PANTING]
>> I HAVE TO GO TO THOSE GROUPS
MORE OFTEN.
AHH.
THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT.
>> [PANTING]
YOU MUST BE ONE HELL OF
A SURGEON. YOU´VE GOT VERY
SENSITIVE HANDS.
>> YOU HAVE A VERY RESPONSIVE
BODY. PARTICULARLY HERE.
AND...HERE.
>> YEAH.
I´M PROBABLY GOING TO MISS
FEELING THAT ONCE THE GIRLS
ARE GONE.
>> WHAT?
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
THOSE ARE 2 OF THE HEALTHIEST
TITS I´VE EVER PUT MY DICK
BETWEEN.
>> I´M NOT GOING TO BE THE THIRD
PERSON IN MY FAMILY TO DIE OF
BREAST CANCER.
>> YOU TESTED POSITIVE FOR
BRCA1?
>> NO.
THAT DOESN´T MEAN I DON´T HAVE
IT. I KNOW THE STATISTICS.
REMOVING BOTH BREASTS CUTS
THE RISK BY 90%.
>> BUT IF THERE´S NO ABNORMALITY
IN THE GENE, I MEAN--
>> I DON´T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT
THE TEST. I KNOW I´M GOING TO
GET IT.
IT´S ONLY A MATTER OF TIME.
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT IT´S
LIKE TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING
SCARED TO TAKE A SHOWER,
TERRIFIED THAT...
TODAY WILL BE THE DAY THAT I
FIND THAT LUMP?
I...
CAN´T THINK ABOUT MARRIAGE,
CAN´T THINK ABOUT KIDS.
I MEAN, WHAT´S THE POINT? I´M
JUST GOING TO LEAVE THEM, JUST
LIKE MY MOTHER LEFT ME.
I WANT YOU TO CUT THEM OFF AND
REPLACE THEM.
>> WHO´S GOT THIS NUTJOB´S
IMPLANTS?
>> IT´S GONNA LOOK LIKE SHE´S
GOT 36Ds IN HER ASS.
>> SHOULD WE PLAY COCO´S DEMO?
SHE ASKED FOR IT.
>> WHATEVER. HIT IT.
[HIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYING]
>> ♫ HERE WE GO,
HERE WE GO,
CRANK IT UP BETTER THAN
YOU SKANK IT UP,
HERE WE GO ♫
>> ♫ YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH ♫
>> ♫ LISTEN UP, Y´ALL ♫
>> ♫ BITCH, YO´ SMELL MAKES ME
WANT TO PUKE,
WHAT´D YOU DO,
SMUGGLE GARLIC IN YOUR COOCH?
YOU WANT TO GET A MAN,
YOU GOTTA SMELL LIKE A FLOWER,
AIN´T IT TIME YOU STOLE SOME
SOAP AND TOOK YOURSELF A SHOWER?
A MAN NEEDS A BITCH WHO WILL
MAKE HIS NOSE SING,
BUT SOME GHETTO BITCHES WILL
JUST SPRAY ANYTHING,
WHITE DIAMONDS, OBSESSION,
GLOW BY J.LO,
WHAT HE REALLY WANTS IS SOME OF
THIS HOT COCO,
CHANEL NUMBER 5 WHEN HE COMES
HOME TO ME,
YOUR MAN WILL LOSE HIS MIND
WHEN HE SEES MY DOUBLE Ds,
DOUBLE Ds, DOUBLE Ds, DOUBLE Ds,
THEN I´LL SLIDE HIM DOWN,
PUT HIS HAND BETWEEN MY KNEES ♫
>> ♫ JUST LIKE BEYONCE DOES
TO JAY-Z ♫
>> ♫ YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH ♫
>> ♫ CRANK IT UP BETTER THAN YOU
STANK IT UP,
CRANK IT UP BETTER THAN YOU
STANK IT UP ♫
>> ♫ NOW I DON´T NEED TO BE
DISSING YOU TOO MUCH,
BUT YOU´RE A STACK OF GARBAGE,
I´M THE ICE CREAM TRUCK,
YOUR MAN AROUND ME, I´VE BEEN
LOOKING FOR SOME CHOCOLATE,
HOT COCO WILL FIND AND STICK
HIS COCK IN IT,
YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH ♫
>> ♫ BITCH ♫
>> ♫ YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH ♫
>> ♫ FILTHY SHIT ♫
♫ YO´ STANK, BITCH ♫
>> ♫ COCO, Y´ALL ♫
>> ♫ YO´ STANK, BITCH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH,
OOH,
YO´ STANK, BITCH,
OOH, OOH,
OH, EH,
EH, OH ♫
>> ♫ STANK, BITCH,
STANK, BITCH,
STANK, BITCH ♫
>> YOU READY FOR TOMORROW?
>> JUST TRYING TO GET A PREVIEW.
>> HMM. COME, SIT.
BEFORE WE DO A SURGERY, I LIKE
TO DO A RUN-THROUGH. LOOK OVER
THE ROAD MAP, SO TO SPEAK.
>> DO YOU HAVE THE NAME OF
SOMEONE IN NEW YORK I CAN CALL
TO DO THE FOLLOW-UP AFTER
THE SURGERY?
>> ABSOLUTELY. ME. I PLAN ON
BEING OUT THERE EVERY WEEKEND
FROM NOW ON.
>> YOU WHAT?
>> THOSE ARE MY KIDS. I´M THEIR
FATHER. I´M NOT GOING TO LEAVE
THEM FOR YOU TO CO-PARENT,
ESPECIALLY AFTER THE BANG-UP JOB
YOU DID WITH YOUR DAUGHTER. TURN
TO THE SIDE.
>> [SCOFFS]
YOU´RE NOT WORRIED ABOUT MY
PARENTING, SEAN. YOU--YOU JUST
WANT TO STAY CLOSE TO JULIA.
GOD, IF--IF YOU REALLY LOVE HER,
JUST LET HER GO THIS TIME, FOR
GOOD.
>> I COULD SAY THE SAME THING TO
YOU.
>> BUT I DID LET HER GO, SEAN.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, SHE CAME BACK
TO ME. CAN´T YOU JUST ACCEPT
THAT JULIA AND I ARE TOGETHER
FOR GOOD NOW, WISH US WELL?
>> NO.
>> THEN HOW CAN I TRUST YOU TO
DO MY FACELIFT?
>> I NEVER LET MY PERSONAL LIFE
INTERFERE WITH MY PROFESSIONAL
OBLIGATIONS.
>> [GASPS]
>> YOU KNOW, I´D FEEL A WHOLE
LOT MORE COMFORTABLE IF SHE
WOULD HAVE GONE TO A SHRINK AND
PROCESSED SOME OF THIS BEFORE
DOING SOMETHING SO IRREVOCABLE.
>> IT´S HER BODY, LIZZIE. YOU
CAN´T JUST BE PRO-CHOICE WHEN
YOU AGREE WITH THAT CHOICE.
>> LOOK, SHE´S AFRAID, I
UNDERSTAND.
>> DO YOU? DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT´S
LIKE TO LAY AWAKE AT NIGHT AND
WONDER IF YOU´RE GOING TO BE
DEAD WITHIN A YEAR?
TO LOOK AT YOUR KID AND TRY AND
MEMORIZE WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE
RIGHT NOW? OR WHAT IT´S LIKE TO
HOLD HIS HAND RIGHT NOW?
>> ARE WE TALKING ABOUT SAVING
HER LIFE OR YOURS? YOU CAN´T CUT
THE FEAR OUT OF YOU BY TAKING
OFF HER BREASTS.
>> 15 BLADE.
[CLEARS THROAT]
>> [INHALES]
[GROANS]
I WAS DREAMING.
I WAS RUNNING IN A FIELD...
WITH A CHILD.
MAYBE IT WAS MINE. I FELT SO
CAREFREE.
>> LOOK, ROXY.
>> I THOUGHT IT WOULD HURT MORE.
>> I´M SORRY.
>> YOU PROMISED ME YOU´D DO IT.
I THOUGHT YOU UNDERSTOOD.
>> I DO. I UNDERSTAND THAT
YOU´RE AFRAID, BUT YOU CAN´T LET
FEAR DICTATE SOMETHING AS BIG AS
THIS, PARTICULARLY IF THERE´S A
CHANCE, A GOOD CHANCE, THAT YOU
MIGHT BE FINE.
>> [SOBBING] FINE?
I HAVE BEEN CONDEMNED TO DEATH,
AND THERE AREN´T GOING TO BE ANY
PARDONS.
[BUBBLING]
[CRACKLES]
>> JESUS, CHRISTIAN, THIS IS
A DOCTOR´S OFFICE.
>> THAT´S WHY I WROTE MYSELF
A PRESCRIPTION.
YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW GOOD THIS
GOVERNMENT SHIT IS?
WHOO! [SNIFFS]
>> PASS ME MR. BUBBLES.
>> [GRUNTS]
UNH.
[BUBBLES]
>> [INHALES]
>> WHY ARE YOU SO DRESSED UP?
>> [SIGHS]
WHAT DO YOU THINK? I WAS GOING
FOR OLD HOLLYWOOD GLAM.
>> YOU LOOK GREAT. WHAT´S HER
NAME?
>> STEVEN.
>> BUTCHY.
>> HE´S AN ANESTHESIOLOGIST, AND
I MET HIM AT AN IARS CONFERENCE
JUST A LITTLE BIT AGO. AND HE
HAS BEEN VERY PERSISTENT.
>> WELL, LET ME GIVE YOU A WORD
OF ADVICE, LIZZIE. NOBODY CAN
GIVE IT TO YOU THE SAME WAY THAT
I DID.
>> OH!
>> OK? SO, STOP SHAVING YOUR
ARMPITS AND GET BACK TO YOUR
SLOPPY GAP PULLOVERS AND YOUR
HICIMA SALAD. YOU´RE WASTING
YOUR TIME!
>> LIZ.
[KISSES]
>> STEVEN ELSBURY, THIS IS
CHRISTIAN TROY.
>> WANT SOME?
>> NO THANKS. NEVER TOUCH IT.
YOU LOOK AMAZING.
>> [CHUCKLES] WELL, THANK YOU.
>> SO...
WHAT DO YOU 2 LOVEBIRDS GOT ON
TAP FOR THIS EVENING?
>> WELL, I MADE A RESERVATION
FOR DOLCE, BUT IT´S SUCH
A SCENE. NOW, I JUST GOT A BATCH
OF MOVIES IN FROM NETFLIX. WE
COULD ORDER IN, TALK.
>> MMM. THAT SOUNDS FANTASTIC.
>> GREAT. GREAT.
>> YOU MIGHT WANT TO OPEN UP
A WINDOW, CHRISTIAN. I FOLLOWED
THE SMELL ALL THE WAY FROM
THE LOBBY.
>> SHE´S A LESBIAN.
>> AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS
THAT GETTING A FACELIFT WHEN YOU
RUN A HOLISTIC HEALING PRACTICE
IS JUST A TEENSY BIT
HYPOCRITICAL?
>> IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HER
CAREER. SHE´S INSECURE ABOUT
JULIA. SHE KNOWS SHE´S ON SHAKY
GROUND.
>> THEN WHY ARE THEY BOTH MOVING
TO NEW YORK TOGETHER?
>> THE FURTHER AWAY SHE TAKES
JULIA, THE MORE SHE´LL BE ABLE
TO CONTROL THEIR RELATIONSHIP,
WHAT SHE REMEMBERS, AND WHO.
JULIA´S IN NO SHAPE TO BE MAKING
LIFE DECISIONS. OLIVIA´S TAKING
ADVANTAGE OF HER VULNERABILITY.
>> POOR SEAN. YOU REALLY THINK
SHE´LL COME BACK TO YOU, THAT
YOU´VE GOT SOME DEEP BOND THAT
TIME AND SPACE CAN´T SEPARATE.
[SCOFFS] WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO
GET IT? SHE DOESN´T WANT YOU.
>> ONCE SHE REMEMBERS WHO WE
WERE TO EACH OTHER, THE LIFE WE
HAD TOGETHER...
>> ALL SHE REMEMBERS OF HER
MARRIAGE TO YOU WAS THAT IT WAS
A FAILURE.
>> SHE KNOWS HOW DEEP MY
COMMITMENT TO HER WAS.
>> REALLY? LIKE WHEN SHE WAS
SICK AND YOU WERE BANGING MY
DAUGHTER?
>> SHUT THE HELL UP.
>> KILL ME, WHY DON´T YOU?
YOU´D LIKE TO, WOULDN´T YOU?
[SCOFFS] YOUR LIFE WOULD BE SO
MUCH EASIER IF I WASN´T IN
THE WAY.
>> DON´T TEMPT ME, OLIVIA.
>> YOU´LL NEVER KILL ME, SEAN.
I´M IN JULIA´S HEAD. I´M IN HER
HEART.
>> I SAID SHUT UP.
>> SEAN, SHE´S IN VTAC. HER
RATE´S 150.
[MONITORS BEEPING RAPIDLY]
>> GET THE DEFIBRILLATOR.
>> CHARGING PADDLES.
[DEFIBRILLATOR BUZZES]
>> I´M GOING TO SHOCK HER ON 3.
READY? 1, 2, 3.
>> SHE´S IN ARREST.
>> I´M STARTING CPR. CALL 911.
[METAL CLANKS]
>> [PANTING]
>> HOW IS SHE?
>> STABILIZED. SEAN´S WITH JULIA
AT THE HOSPITAL, AND HE SAID
HE´D CALL WHEN HE KNEW MORE.
I DON´T UNDERSTAND HOW THIS
HAPPENED.
>> SHE´LL BE FINE, LIZZIE.
BESIDES, YOU DID EVERYTHING BY
THE BOOK. SHE´D BE DEAD IF IT
WASN´T FOR YOU. REMEMBER THAT.
[GRUNTS]
>> NOW WHAT?
>> HMM?
>> NOW WHAT?
>> NOW, WE WAIT.
YOU LIKE SPORTS?
[TELEPHONE RINGS]
[INDISTINCT MUSIC PLAYS]
>> HELLO.
IS DR. TROY IN?
>> DO YOU HAVE AN APPOINTMENT?
>> NO, NO. I´M A FRIEND.
>> WELL, HE´S FINISHING UP
A CONSULT RIGHT NOW, BUT HE
USUALLY CHECKS BACK IN WHEN IT´S
DONE.
>> DO YOU HAVE AN OUTLET?
>> HOW WAS YOUR DATE WITH EVAN?
>> STEVEN.
>> WHATEVER.
>> IT WAS A DREAM. [SIGHS]
HE ORDERED PIZZA, WE WATCHED
3 DAYS OF THE CONDOR, AND THEN,
HE MADE ME DESSERT. THERE IS NO
GREATER FOREPLAY THAN FLAMBE.
>> DID HE MAKE YOU CUM?
>> YEAH. HE´S GOT MYSTICAL
POWERS, TOO.
>> OH. I THINK IT WOULD BE
BETTER IF YOU SAT OVER THERE.
>> ♫ BABY,
YOU KNOW YOU GOT IT
IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD,
WHOA,
TAKE IT,
ANOTHER LITTLE PIECE OF MY
HEART, BABY,
OH,
MAKE IT,
ANOTHER LITTLE BIT OF SOUL,
BABY,
I WANT TO LOVE YOU SO,
HAVE IT,
HAVE ANOTHER LITTLE BIT OF MY
LOVE, BABY ♫
>> [GRUNTING]
[SCREAMS]
>> ♫ YOU KNOW YOU´VE GOT IT
IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD ♫
>> [SCREAMS]
>> ♫ OHH, TAKE IT,
TAKE ANOTHER LITTLE BIT OF MY
HEART, BABY ♫
[BUZZES]
>> ♫ BREAK IT,
BREAK ANOTHER LITTLE BIT OF MY
SOUL, BABY ♫
>> [PANTING]
>> ♫ TAKE IT ♫
>> [INDISTINCT]
>> ♫ PIECE OF MY HEART, BABY ♫
>> [PANTING]
>> ♫ YEAH ♫
>> [GASPS]
>> [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
>> LISTEN.
>> WHY OLIVIA, SEAN? IN ALL THIS
TIME YOU´VE BEEN OPERATING,
YOU´VE ALWAYS BEEN SO CAREFUL
AND SO THOROUGH. NOW, ISN´T IT
JUST POSSIBLE THAT YOU WEREN´T
CAREFUL WITH HER BECAUSE
SOMEWHERE IN THAT DARK SOUL OF
YOURS, YOU JUST WANTED TO BE RID
OF HER?
>> ARE YOU BLAMING ME? I CAN´T
BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT.
>> [GASPS] YOU LIED ABOUT
THE WHEELCHAIR. YOU LIED ABOUT
MONICA. YOU LIED ABOUT MEGAN.
YOU´RE A LIAR AND A CHEATER.
>> ARE YOU DR. McNAMARA,
MS. LORD´S PHYSICIAN?
>> HOW´S SHE DOING?
>> I´M AFRAID WE WEREN´T ABLE TO
SAVE HER. HER HEART STOPPED AT
5:03.
>> OH, MY GOD. [INDISTINCT]
I WANT TO SEE HER. YOU HAVE TO
LET ME SEE HER.
>> I´M SORRY. WHO ARE YOU?
>> I´M HER PARTNER, GOD DAMN IT.
>> OF COURSE. IF YOU´LL JUST
WAIT A FEW MINUTES.
>> [PANTING]
I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU, SEAN.
NOW, THERE IS GOING TO BE
AN AUTOPSY, AND IF YOU HAVE ANY
CULPABILITY AT ALL, IT WILL BE
REVEALED, AND I WILL MAKE SURE
THAT YOU NEVER WORK AGAIN.
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU! [GASPS]
THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT.
>> JULIA.
>> HOW COULD YOU DO THIS CRAP?
[CRYING]
[BUZZING]
>> I JUST WANT TO SAY--
>> I KNOW WHAT YOU´RE SAYING, SO
JUST SHUT UP. I MEAN, JESUS, SHE
ALMOST DIED IN THE LOBBY. I
SHOULD NEVER HAVE LISTENED TO
YOU. I´M GOING TO REMOVE HER
OTHER BREAST, LIKE SHE ASKED ME
TO, SO THAT SHE DOESN´T HAVE TO.
>> WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY,
CHRISTIAN, IS THAT YOU WERE
RIGHT.
>> [SCOFFS]
>> IT´S WHAT ROXY WANTS. IT´S
HER BODY.
SHE´S ALONE, AND SHE TURNED TO
US WITH HER FEARS, AND WE DIDN´T
LISTEN.
I DIDN´T LISTEN.
I´M SORRY.
AND LET ME TELL YOU FROM
EXPERIENCE, THERE IS NOTHING
WORSE THAN HAVING TO FACE YOUR
FEARS ALONE.
>> GIVE ME 15 BLADE. COME ON.
HURRY UP!
>> [SIGHS] WE LOST HER.
OLIVIA´S DEAD.
[FOOTSTEPS]
>> ♫ ONE IS THE LONELIEST
NUMBER... ♫
>> [GRUNTS]
[INHALES]
[EXHALES]
IT WASN´T YOUR FAULT.
>> ISN´T IT?
I WANTED HER TO DIE. I HAD THIS
FANTASY DURING THE SURGERY...
THIS URGE TO JUST...
I WANTED HER OUT OF JULIA´S LIFE
SO I COULD GET BACK IN.
>> FANTASIZING ABOUT SOMETHING
AND ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING
ABOUT IT--2 COMPLETELY DIFFERENT
THINGS.
>> YOU KNOW THE REAL IRONY IN
THIS? NOW THAT OLIVIA´S DEAD...
I´VE LOST JULIA FOREVER.
I FEEL LIKE I´M IN SOME GREEK
PLAY. YOU TRY TO CONTROL YOUR
FATE, BUT THE GODS HAVE OTHER
PLANS.
MAYBE I´M JUST, UH...
NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE HER.
MAYBE I´M SUPPOSED TO...
BE ALONE.
>> I THINK THAT´S MY FORTUNE
COOKIE YOU´RE READING THERE,
PRETTY BOY, NOT YOURS.
>> DR. KOTCHMAN CALLED WITH
THE TOXICOLOGY REPORT. OLIVIA
WAS ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS, AND SHE
DIDN´T TELL US.
>> ARE YOU SURE?
>> THAT´S WHY SHE WENT INTO
ARREST--MIXING IT WITH
THE ANESTHESIA. IF SHE HAD TOLD
US, WE COULD HAVE WEANED HER OFF
BEFORE THE OPERATION. SHE SHOULD
HAVE KNOWN BETTER.
WE DIDN´T DO IT, SEAN.
>> IT DOESN´T MAKE SENSE. WHY
WOULD SHE KEEP THAT A SECRET?
>> MAYBE SHE FELT EMBARRASSED.
A HEALER TAKING MEDICATION FOR
AN EMOTIONAL DISORDER WENT
AGAINST EVERYTHING SHE BELIEVED
IN.
>> NEW YORK´S GOING TO BE SO
STRANGE WITHOUT HER NOW.
>> YOU´RE STILL GOING?
>> MMM. [SNIFFS]
ON ONE OF OUR EARLY DATES,
OLIVIA TOOK ME TO THE CLOISTERS.
SHE LOVED THE ARCHITECTURE THERE
AND THE HISTORY. IT´S WHERE WE
FELL IN LOVE.
SPREADING HER ASHES THERE IS
WHAT SHE´D WANT ME TO DO.
>> LIKE HELL SHE WOULD.
I DID NOT JUST SUFFER
THE RED-EYE FROM BUDAPEST TO
HAVE YOU STEAL MY MOTHER AWAY
FROM ME YET AGAIN, YOU BONY
LITTLE PARASITE.
WELL, AT LEAST YOU MADE IT EASY
FOR ME TO TAKE HER HOME. GETTING
THE COFFIN THROUGH CUSTOMS WOULD
BE A BIT OF A HASSLE.
I DIDN´T EXPECT TO SEE YOU HERE.
DON´T THEY USUALLY ARREST HACKS
WHO KILL THEIR PATIENTS DURING
SURGERY?
>> EDEN, I´M VERY SORRY ABOUT
WHAT HAPPENED, BUT YOUR MOTHER
DIED BECAUSE SHE NEVER DISCLOSED
THE MEDICATION SHE WAS TAKING.
>> SHE KEPT HER PRESCRIPTION
A SECRET FROM ALL OF US.
>> YOU MEAN THE ANTIDEPRESSANTS
SHE WAS ON FOR THE LAST
6 MONTHS? THAT SECRET?
>> HOW DID YOU KNOW?
>> OH, I KNEW ALL OF HER
SECRETS, JULIA. LIKE THE REAL
REASON WHY SHE STARTED TO TAKE
THE PILLS TO BEGIN WITH. SHE WAS
DEPRESSED...
BECAUSE SHE WAS THE ONE WHO SHOT
YOU.
>> [EXHALES]
>> SHE STARTED DRINKING AFTER
YOU TOLD HER YOU SLEPT WITH
CHRISTIAN. SHE WAS A MESS, AND
YOU WERE IN THE BED WEAK AND
TIRED.
THE DAY SHE SHOT YOU, SHE WAS
COMPLETELY SMASHED. SHE MUST
HAVE THOUGH YOU WERE A BURGLAR,
I GUESS.
>> YOU´RE LYING.
>> SHE WAS MISERABLE, JULIA.
YOU MADE HER THAT WAY. AND IN
THE END, YOU KILLED HER.
>> YOU EXPECT US TO BELIEVE ALL
THAT?
>> IT DOESN´T MATTER WHAT YOU
BELIEVE. IT´S THE TRUTH. WHY DO
YOU THINK I LEFT THE COUNTRY?
HUH? I´VE BEEN KEEPING THIS
A SECRET THE ENTIRE TIME. I
COULDN´T TURN MY MOTHER IN,
COULD I?
THINK ABOUT IT.
MAYBE SHE DIDN´T TELL ANYONE
THAT SHE WAS ON THE MEDICATION
BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO DIE IN
SURGERY ´CAUSE SHE COULDN´T LIVE
WITH THE GUILT OF WHAT SHE DID
ANYMORE.
>> NO. SHE DIDN´T HAVE TO DO
THAT IF IT WAS AN ACCIDENT.
I WOULD HAVE FORGIVEN HER.
>> WELL, IT´S A LITTLE TOO LATE
FOR THAT, ISN´T IT?
[SHUDDERS]
YOU KNOW WHAT THE REALLY
SHOCKING THING IS? SHE ACTUALLY
LOVED YOU.
[SCOFFS] THAT´S WHY IT HURT SO
MUCH WHEN SHE NEARLY KILLED YOU.
BUT IF YOU THINK THAT YOU COULD
FORGIVE HER FOR WHAT SHE DID...
THEN I GUESS...
YOU DESERVE TO HAVE HER BACK.
>> YOU WANT TO HEAR A BEDTIME
STORY?
>> I HEARD YO´ STINK BITCH
AGAIN.
>> WHAT? WHO PLAYED THAT FOR
YOU?
>> DADDY DID.
IT´S CATCHY. IT´S NUMBER 8 ON
YOUTUBE AND CLIMBING.
>> AUNT LIZZIE THINKS THAT´S
A VERY NASTY SONG AND NOT FOR
LITTLE BOYS. IT´S TIME FOR YOU
TO GO TO SLEEP. GIVE ME A LITTLE
KISS. AWW.
DON´T YOU LET THOSE BEDBUGS BITE
YOU, OK?
>> GOOD NIGHT, AUNTIE LIZ.
I LOVE YOU.
>> [CHUCKLES] AND I LOVE YOU.
>> WILL YOU BE HERE IN
THE MORNING?
>> PROBABLY NOT. BUT I AM GOING
TO SEE YOU VERY, VERY SOON, OK?
>> NIGHTY-NIGHT, BUDDY BOY.
[DOOR SHUTS]
>> ARE YOU LEAVING?
ARE YOU MAD?
>> NO. [GRUNTS]
THE TRUTH IS, I´M SENSING THAT
HE´S BEGINNING TO EXPECT ME HERE
EVEN IN THE MORNINGS, AND I
JUST--I DON´T THINK THAT´S
A GOOD IDEA FOR ANY OF US, YOU
KNOW, FOR THE OBVIOUS REASONS.
>> WHICH ARE?
>> WELL, MAINLY, I´M NOT YOUR
SIGNIFICANT OTHER.
>> WELL, YOU ARE KIND OF. I
MEAN, NOT REALLY, BUT SORT OF.
>> IN WHAT WORLD WOULD SOMETHING
LIKE THAT MAKE ME FEEL GOOD?
>> [CHUCKLES] IN THE REAL WORLD.
JUST BE REAL WITH ME.
>> YOU WANT REAL? OK. ALL RIGHT.
I LIED ABOUT STEVEN. I DIDN´T
HAVE A FABULOUS ORGASM. IT WAS
MORE LIKE BEING BITTEN BY
AN OVERSIZED MOSQUITO. IT WAS
HELL.
CHRISTIAN, I DON´T LIKE MEN.
I LIKE YOU.
>> TOLD YOU I WAS THE SHIT.
>> YOU ARE SHIT. THAT´S FOR
SURE. BUT THE POINT IS, IT HAS
NOTHING TO DO WITH TECHNIQUE OR
GENDER. IT´S YOU.
YOU ARE A JERK. YOU´RE POMPOUS,
RIDICULOUS, INFURIATING,
AND YET, SOMEHOW, I GET IT.
I GET IT.
AND UNDERNEATH IT ALL, I KNOW
THAT YOU´VE GOT MY BACK IN A WAY
THAT NOBODY ELSE DOES OR EVER
HAS, AND...
I KNOW WHO YOU ARE, CHRISTIAN.
I WATCH HOW HARD YOU STRUGGLE TO
BE STRONG, AND YOU STRUGGLE TO
BE BETTER, AND I DON´T KNOW.
SOMEHOW, IT JUST MOVES ME.
AND I DON´T KNOW WHAT TO SAY,
CHRISTIAN. I THINK I´M--
>> NOT THE "L" WORD, LIZZIE.
JUST STOP RIGHT THERE. [SCOFFS]
I GET IT. I FEEL EXACTLY
THE SAME WAY. MOST OF THE TIME,
YOU DRIVE ME BATSHIT, BUT YOU´RE
THE ONLY WOMAN I REALLY TRUST.
AND YOU CARE ABOUT ME
UNCONDITIONALLY...
UNDERSTAND ME AND MY KID AND...
I LOVE YOU FOR THAT.
>> NO "L" WORD, REMEMBER?
>> [CHUCKLES]
IS IT REALLY SO TERRIBLE FOR
WILBUR TO WAKE UP TO AUNT LIZZIE
AT BREAKFAST SEVERAL MORNINGS
A WEEK?
[DOOR SHUTS]